Posted on 2008.07.31 at 09:20
Current Mood: 
lonely
My morning began with a random asshole calling me a piece of shit over the phone. that was exciting.
I'm getting tired of people that work here not doing their job and strangers on the phone either thinking I'm their fuckin therapist or taking their anger out on me because their life sucks.
I don't normally let people get to me, but today, it's particularly strange. I don't think I'm going to make it.
Posted on 2008.07.28 at 08:41
Current Mood: 
hopeful
I'm actually really happy that Ryan's coming back, I was loosing hope for a while and thinking of ways to make my life more bareable staying at my moms and Zoros till I had enough saved to get my own place after the baby. But if things go well, we'll have our own place here again within a couple of months. He really wants a house but I don't care I'm just tired of living out of a suitcase and as long as the location doesn't suck ass I'll be content.
It may suck for a little bit while we save money so we can start our own busines here, but if we do things the right way we should be fine.
I just want us to stop arguing and be happy together. That's all.
Posted on 2008.07.25 at 12:36
Current Mood: 
anxious
I'm eating poopybean! I'm eating! Stop growling asshole.
I assume she's going to be one of those annoying babies.
:)
Posted on 2008.07.24 at 11:47
Current Mood: hopeful
I feel like my uterus is going to fall out of my vagina at any moment.
I'm not even half way there yet. Ugh :/
Posted on 2008.07.23 at 08:01
Current Mood: 
sarcastic
No thanks I didn't marry my dad. I've had enough insults to last me a lifetime the last thing I need is my husband being an ass too.
Must be a guy thing to say mean and stupid things and then pretend it never happened and then he wonders why I don't want to see him.
But apparantly I'm spolied, because I have a shitty job, no home and have to help out my parents anytime I can because their finances are shit and on top of that deal with being pregnant and an asshole husband that lives miles away. But he really loves me he says. sometimes easy words are just not enough.
Posted on 2008.07.11 at 10:16
Current Mood: 
confused
Posted on 2008.07.07 at 09:25
Current Mood: 
thoughtful
I keep trying to think of positive things that will encourage me to go back to Chicago, but its not working.
I used to want to move to Chicago, but when I imagined it before I met Ryan, none of the things that make me hate it right now were involved. I guess it would be different if I had something that motivated me.
I was looking at this apartments on top of a business in Broad Ripple last night... In my dreams.
My friends are good to me, even if I don't see them enough. Sometimes little things make a big difference, I don't want to loose that.
Posted on 2008.07.03 at 08:16
Current Mood: peaceful
Emportés par la foule qui nous traîne
Nous entraîne
Écrasés l'un contre l'autre
Nous ne formons qu'un seul corps
Et le flot sans effort
Nous pousse, enchaînés l'un et l'autre
Et nous laisse tous deux
Épanouis, enivrés et heureux...
Edith Piaf first thing in the morning is the beist.
Posted on 2008.07.01 at 09:14
Current Mood: 
fatso
Movie night tonight, yay!
Too tired to work today, I like Zoros house better than staying at my moms but the cat hair is killing me and my stomachaches don't seem to be getting any better. Meh, regardless of the inconveniences I'm still glad I'm here. I missed everyone and I'm much more relaxed now.
Posted on 2008.06.04 at 16:21
Current Mood: crushed
In the past few months my life has been turned upside down, however, people expect to act the same.
Posted on 2008.05.28 at 11:20
Current Mood: blah
Who ever told Jim I was talking shit about him, get a life. Seriously, Jim knows how I feel about him and if he doesn't that's his problem.
I have a journal to vent about random things that annoy me, don't use what I write to start drama. We're not in fuckin highschool people, find someone else to talk about if your life is that fuckin boring.
Go read a book or something.
Posted on 2008.05.27 at 11:35
Current Mood: 
sick
I'm tired, stuffy and nauseous and the water tastes like eggs.
I planned on quitting my job today but haven't had the guts to do it.
The phone keeps ringing but I can't hear a goddam thing.
I walked out of my apartment today and almost walked right back in and called in to work. Instead I told my self to be strong and walked, it was cold and windy. What was I thinking!? is not like I give a shit about anything anymore. Laying in bed would be wonderful right now, but I did that all day yesterday. I'm such a sad little person.
Posted on 2008.05.20 at 11:10
Current Mood: okay
If your goal was to look like a dumbass with down syndrome, then you acomplished the look.
Seriously what is wrong with people now days.
Maybe they are all mentally retarded!
Why don't you just ride your bike into a moving object. Go, do it!
Let's all go do what our friends tell us to do since we don't know any better. I hate you pimple-faced freaks!
Posted on 2008.05.12 at 10:21
Current Mood: thankful
Stuffy nose, nausea, dizzynes, fatigue and sometimes I can't poop.
At least I'm not in such a bad mood anymore though and I'm actually starting to be excited about it.
I'm going to try to enjoy being here as much as I can but I hope we get to go back to Indy soon. I don't think I'll make it past two years here.
Two! that's alot. Be thankful and move on.
Ryan has been wonderful for the most part.
I can't decide if I should go puke or eat some cereal. Choices.
My job is getting repetitive, but I don't hate it.
Posted on 2008.05.08 at 11:43
Current Mood: 
groggy
I'm incredibly tired.
Lately, I feel like such a lazy fat hog. Ugh.
Posted on 2008.05.01 at 10:34
Current Mood: healthy
Ok nevermind, Allyce is definitly my favorite one.
She's so weird and random, she called me this morning before I came in to ask if I was sick. What!? she's awesome.
I still like my job.
Ryan does too, obviously. Maybe one day (soon) we'll have enough money to open a coffe shop in Broad Ripple instead so we don't have to continue living in this shithole place.
Although Indy gets boring sometimes, it's a million times better than Chicago, for many reason. I won't get into how much and why I hate this place though.
I'm eating cinnamon roll oatmeal, it's effen magnificent!
Posted on 2008.04.14 at 15:40
Current Mood: anxious
I just got promoted I think!
From receptionist to marketting manager/closing coordinator. Whatever tha means. Wooo!
Finding out that Jim Flora has an exibition at a museum about an hour from here and good news at work makes up for living in a frat house with a bunch of fuckheads.This weekend I'm taking a road trip to Wauconda to see the exibit all by myself, I realized yesterday that I am a loner... and I'm ok with that.
Posted on 2008.04.11 at 10:27
Current Mood: tired
Ryan and I went on a date to Margies last night.
It was wonderful, we never go on dates anymore.
I'm hoping that by May we'll be roomate free and we'll get to spend more quality time together.
The weather is nice, I get paid today and I'm off for the weekend, wooo!
I've been really tired lately for some reason...monday I go back to vegeterianism, woot!
Posted on 2008.04.09 at 13:05
Current Mood: 
hungry
My job's really boring, but everyone's nice and they always feed me. Food makes me happy.
We're supposed to play a show at the coffe shop tomorrow but I don't know if it will actually happen, my band's just as bad as commiting to shows as I am.
Recently I've discover a genuious writter/artist, his name is David Shrigley. Every one should experience him.
www.davidshrigley.com
Posted on 2008.04.02 at 13:12
Current Mood: excited
It's my second day but I really really like it.
Everyone in the office is supper nice and its very laid back.
I'm sure I'll get tired of it in a couple of months but I'm just glad I finally got a job. Yay for not being a jobless looser anymore.
The weather's alittle nicer and I'm just hoping that soon I will be roomate-free.
Tonight I paint...or read Milan Kundera (even though I think he's over rated)
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